Playing with my Camera

Here are just some pictures of what I do when I play with my camera! Enjoy!

Picture of a weird looking shaped sticky tack on a glowing star....would be better if the star was glowing too!!









Ah! There we go. A glow-in-the-dark star with sticky tack shaped like......something weird.









Picture of my sunglasses!











I like this picture a lot. The details are cool! <3 Black and white photos!
















Last picture I'm showing is my guitar!

Such a Failure!! (yes, this is a rant)

URGHHH!!!!!

I feel so stupid. How can I not get a 60 in evolution??!! URGGHHHH!!!! Why must I put more pain and suffering onto myself??!! Re-taking orgo was bad enough...now I have to retake evolution also?! This is madness!! OMGosh!!!!

Someone kill me now!!! Why do I have to do this again??!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I don't even know what to do with my life anymore. What am going to go into for my program? What kind of job would I get with the crap marks I have? What am I doing?

I thought I would do loads better this year. It seemed alright with the two marks that came out first. I knew ecology was going to be tough but I still don't have to retake it. DARN IT! Evolution ruined it all. Now I'm so confused and rattled about what to do with myself. Should I give up? Should I kill myself? Should I keep trying? Should I think of more backup plans that might not even succeed? I don't know anymore. My school/career life is so messed up now. A two digit number can do so much damage.

I'M SO CONFUSED AND PANICY (not sure if that's a word or not)!!!

Is it the effort I put into studying? Or is it just my understanding of how evolution works? Who cares if we may have diverged from hominids? Who cares if our LUCA (last universal common ancestor) changes? Who friggin cares about genetics??!! MY GOSH!! Why is genetics part of evolution. It already has it's own course all alone, why does it have to be in evolution as well?!! OH MY GOSH!!! Why won't this suffering end? If evolution was a person, I'd stab the heck out of it. No, not just stab. I might just even cut it into pieces, deep fry it and feed it to genetics since they like being together so much.

I need a new emotion to express my anger and desire to murder evolution. I need to punch something. I need to release this madness within onto something. I need to bash someone's face in or smash someone's head into a brick wall.




wow, so much anger....dang....no wonder people call me violent....it is pretty true...but these are just words and no actions will follow...sigh....i should have just made better life decisions when i was younger....



WHO THE FRIG INVENTED OR CAME UP WITH THE IDEA OF EVOLUTION??!! WAS IT DARWIN?? I'M GONNA TRAVEL BACK IN TIME AND KILL YOUR FINCHES!!! THEN SEE HOW YOU'LL COME UP WITH THE THEORY OF EVOLUTION!!! I'M GONNA KILL YOUR GRANDFATHER TOO!! (i think it was his grandfather..or father...or uncle...or brother?) HE CAME UP WITH THE STUPID COMMON ANCESTOR THINGY!!! HE MUST DIE TOO!!! YOU ALL MUST DIE TO SATISFY MY ANGER AND THURST FOR BLOOD!!



dang...that is violent.....sheesh...i should really stop being so angry and find a different way of doing things....sighhhhhhhhh

*on long last sigh*

PS: don't think I'm gonna kill someone. I won't. I was just kidding/trying to express my anger and depression.

I'm BACK!

eerrr...i'm just bored...and i don't wanna study right now...too early....too lazy....too hungry...
mmmm..food....*drools*
uhhh...i'll try to post some stuff...dunno when but i'll try
good luck all in exams and stuff
happy holidays!

ps. buy me presents...hahahahahhaha..j/k

Can't sleep

It's 5:26am on my clock and I'm still awake.

Why am I not asleep yet? Is it because I took a long nap during the day? If it is, then I'm never taking naps that long ever again.

Since I couldn't sleep, I decided to watch Wimbeldon (sp?). For some reason I wanted to watch this when the movie first came out. ^shrugs^

Tried to sleep after the movie but still couldn't. The sky is turning blue now. I'm gonna be doomed during the day now.

Hope everyone is sleeping and not like me.

Triad

I went to sleep yesterday (actually this morning) at 2am. Woke up at 5am because of a nasty stomach ache which made me stay up afterwards. So what did I do so early in the morning? Well, lets rewind back to yesterday first. Yesterday after class and working on a library assignment, I came home and started to watch "Young and Dangerous". There is a total of 6 movies, and I watched 5 of them yesterday, lol. So obvious I would finish the last movie if I woke up at 5am with nothing else to do.

The movie "Young and Dangerous" talks about the triads in Hong Kong, Taiwan and Japan. I was thinking how Christians are not that different, aside from the killing and other nasty business. Triads want to spread and make their turf bigger; Christians want to spread the gospel to the world. Only difference is that they kill/do drugs/threaten/etc to accomplish their goal, and we don't. They worship a God like we do, just not the same God. Yeah, you can say we are totally different from them but you can't deny that we resemble in some ways.

We have brothers and sisters in Christ, they also have people they call brothers and sisters.

The triad would take a knife to the back, a shot in the chest, a punch to the face, a burn the neck for their fellow brothers and sisters. This makes me wonder if my brothers and sisters in Christ would do that or not. Though traid members tend to be disloyal, but when they are loyal, nothing can break it.

Can we take these blows from satan for our brothers and sisters? I'm pretty sure we can.

Randomness

I wonder if guys can have PMS just like females do. If we do, then that explains some of my mood swings, lol. I find myself to get mad or annoyed by a lot of things lately. Just minor things too, nothing really big.

Went to Naz today for the first time. Pastor Junior is really charismatic, and I like it. I like the passion he has for Christ. The worship was led by Roger and I found it to be great as well. I wouldn't mind going there again some time.

Not much has been going on. Class, finish homework, game, anime, game some more. That's pretty much my life right now. Nothing special. Lots of struggles it seems lately. Not going to say it all here because I don't really know exactly what they are. Just feels like I'm struggle.

Feel like going back to my Asian roots, haha. Maybe I should pick up my chinese again. Should try to make it my goal. Should actually start making a lot more goals so my life doesn't seem meaningless to me.

A Wartime Mentality

I was at West London on Sunday and Pastor Wilkins brought up something by John Piper. I found it to be quite interesting so I decided to search it up and post it here. Enjoy!

"When I go back and read my journal one of these years, the end of 1983 and the beginning of 1984 will be dominated by two phrases: frontier missions and wartime mentality. More than ever in my life the stark reality of thousands of people groups unreached by a "peaceful" western church, has been branded on my brain. More and more it troubles my heart. The logic of love is irresistible. If I love the lost I will seek to save them from perishing. If I love the glory of God I will work to overcome the worldwide ignorance and belittling of that glory. The blinders are beginning to fall off of my eyes and the bombshells of the unseen war are beginning to explode with terrible brightness all around me. I am coming to see the peacetime mentality that dominates our church and our conference as a tactical victory of Satan -- the result of a kind of nerve gas from Satan's arsenal of chemical weaponry that gives the soldiers of Christ a kind of stupor in some and religious euphoria in others, and eventually puts them to sleep at the gates of the enemy, and makes them utterly oblivious to the cries of the P.O.W.'s behind the wall. Who but Satan could devise a chemical weapon which when spread over the army of Christ would make them content simply to hold worship services and support groups at the door of Satan's dungeon? Picture the Allied troops landing in Germany, marching victoriously toward the smoke from the ovens of Dachau, and then stopping at the gates, setting up camp and having a big Bavarian beer bust to celebrate while the Gestapo finishes murdering 5,000 Jews behind the gates. Satan is satisfied with all our religious activity as long as it does not move us to break down those gates to rescue the perishing.

Therefore, at the top of my agenda these days has been the question: how can I get myself and the church awake to a wartime mentality? Is there some way to break the spell? Picture a great army asleep with mighty weapons in their limp hands and armor in their tents. Picture them sleeping in the fields all around one of Satan's strongholds. Suddenly, an eyelid blinks, a head lifts and looks around. Then another and another. A strange awakening spreads through the field. Muscles are flexed. Armor fitted. Swords sharpened. Eyes meet with silent excitement. The light in the commander's tent goes on, the generals gather and the strategy for the attack is laid.

What has happened? The Holy Spirit has begun to move upon the armies of the Lord. "Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give you light … Do not be drunk with Bavarian beer but be filled with the Holy Spirit … Put on the whole armor of God … and take the sword of the Spirit which is the word of God … Keep alert … and help each other be bold" (Eph. 5:14,18; 6:11,17-19). There is only one power that can break the spell of Satan, waken the armies of the Lord and rout the god of this age -- the power of the Holy Spirit."