Sunday, May 27, 2007
Went to Naz today for the first time. Pastor Junior is really charismatic, and I like it. I like the passion he has for Christ. The worship was led by Roger and I found it to be great as well. I wouldn't mind going there again some time.
Not much has been going on. Class, finish homework, game, anime, game some more. That's pretty much my life right now. Nothing special. Lots of struggles it seems lately. Not going to say it all here because I don't really know exactly what they are. Just feels like I'm struggle.
Feel like going back to my Asian roots, haha. Maybe I should pick up my chinese again. Should try to make it my goal. Should actually start making a lot more goals so my life doesn't seem meaningless to me.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
"When I go back and read my journal one of these years, the end of 1983 and the beginning of 1984 will be dominated by two phrases: frontier missions and wartime mentality. More than ever in my life the stark reality of thousands of people groups unreached by a "peaceful" western church, has been branded on my brain. More and more it troubles my heart. The logic of love is irresistible. If I love the lost I will seek to save them from perishing. If I love the glory of God I will work to overcome the worldwide ignorance and belittling of that glory. The blinders are beginning to fall off of my eyes and the bombshells of the unseen war are beginning to explode with terrible brightness all around me. I am coming to see the peacetime mentality that dominates our church and our conference as a tactical victory of Satan -- the result of a kind of nerve gas from Satan's arsenal of chemical weaponry that gives the soldiers of Christ a kind of stupor in some and religious euphoria in others, and eventually puts them to sleep at the gates of the enemy, and makes them utterly oblivious to the cries of the P.O.W.'s behind the wall. Who but Satan could devise a chemical weapon which when spread over the army of Christ would make them content simply to hold worship services and support groups at the door of Satan's dungeon? Picture the Allied troops landing in Germany, marching victoriously toward the smoke from the ovens of Dachau, and then stopping at the gates, setting up camp and having a big Bavarian beer bust to celebrate while the Gestapo finishes murdering 5,000 Jews behind the gates. Satan is satisfied with all our religious activity as long as it does not move us to break down those gates to rescue the perishing.
Therefore, at the top of my agenda these days has been the question: how can I get myself and the church awake to a wartime mentality? Is there some way to break the spell? Picture a great army asleep with mighty weapons in their limp hands and armor in their tents. Picture them sleeping in the fields all around one of Satan's strongholds. Suddenly, an eyelid blinks, a head lifts and looks around. Then another and another. A strange awakening spreads through the field. Muscles are flexed. Armor fitted. Swords sharpened. Eyes meet with silent excitement. The light in the commander's tent goes on, the generals gather and the strategy for the attack is laid.
Friday, May 11, 2007
A few weeks ago at P&R's, Doreen brought up this song but didn't
remember the whole song. So I decided to look it up!
This was a pretty good song, so I decided to share with you all! Enjoy!
Thankful For Your Fellowship
Every time I think of you, my heart is filled with joy.
I thank God for all you've meant to me.
You have helped me serve the Lord in many, many ways.
We are partners for eternity.
I'm thankful for your fellowship;
thankful for your partnership,
Thankful for the love we share in Je-sus Christ.
I'm thankful for the joy we've known,
Thankful for the way we've grown.
I thank God each time I think of you.
God is using you to give this gospel to this land.
Your whole life is serving Him some way.
And I'm sure He'll carry on, His work will not be done.
Until Jesus comes again someday.
You are always in my heart, it's right for you to know,
I love you because of Jesus' love.
I'm praying everyday, your love will grow and grow,
Guided by His wisdom form above.
As you choose to do His will, He'll free you from all sin,
You will face His judgment without blame.
Then when Jesus comes again, your life will be
Fulfilled giving praise and glory to God's name.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Praise the Lord really for this year. I don't know how I passed but I did. Even though I need to retake one course for a better mark, I'm still glad that I somehow made it through the harsh 2nd year combos. Walking into a lot of my exams, I didn't really feel that confident. And when I was writing them, it just made me feel even worse. Leaving most of them before the 2 hr mark made me feel nervous as to whether or not I'll pass. But praise the Lord! Not only did I pass, but I passed with a higher mark than I anticipated! Now all I have to do is not to screw up the next 2 years.
I was reading Proverbs 27 yesterday and read a few good quotes.
9 Perfume and incense bring joy to the heart,
and the pleasantness of one's friend springs from his earnest counsel.
11 Be wise, my son, and bring joy to my heart;
then I can answer anyone who treats me with contempt.
17 As iron sharpens iron,
so one man sharpens another.
19 As water reflects a face,
so a man's heart reflects the man.
Not much to say about them. They just stood out to me when I read them. Hopefully they'll mean something to others when they read it. I think I like verse 11 a bit more than the rest because it applies to what I need right now, answers. So I guess I can't be stupid anymore and do stupid things.
Still looking for a job in London and Toronto. The Lord will provide.
Keep having a great summer! Turn those A/C's up so we can have another power outage...hahaha! Just kidding.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
I left the house with about 5 minutes before service started. Hearing that MCBC was pretty close to where I lived but parking was madness, I decided to walk there. Without knowing how the building looked like or where it really was exactly, I kept walking. At some points I even began to run a bit hoping I'd find it in time for the message.
I was at an intersection, seeing two buildings in different directions. One was big and white, the other I could only see the tip of the building. Thinking churches might usually be white for some reason, I raced towards the big building. As I walked closer, I was wondering where the cross on top of the building could be. Also where all the cars are. The parking lot was pretty much empty when I got there. There was no sign or anything near the building saying what it was. So I walked around to the front to find that it was not a church at all. I turned around and headed back to where I was before.
I started to go to the other building which seemed a bit further away than the first building. While I was walking/running, I came across Logo's Baptist Church. I was thinking of just going there but didn't seem like they were going to start service soon. Since I told my parents they can come find me at 10:30am (after service), I decided not to go to LBC. I kept walking and walking but I couldn't find that building. I looked up to try and see the roof but it was no where to be found. It was already 9:50/9:55am. There was no point looking anymore seeing how I missed 30minutes of the service already.
So what did I learn from all this?
I learned that satan tries really hard to keep you away from God. During the walking and running, the thought of just giving up kept running through my head. But I realized that satan was at work here and ignored him as much as possible. Even though at the end I didn't go to church, I learned a lot from the morning running around. God will continually give you strength to fight satan. He will protect you when you walk alone on the streets. Even when you take the wrong road, He will bring you back safely on the right road.
Hope everyone learned something from their own church service!
Saturday, May 05, 2007
No matter how much you picture your life to be, it may never end up the way you want it to be. Some say they don't want to be married or have kids then BAM! You're married with a gazillion kids running around your house. That's how life is, full of unexpected things. I guess that's how it should be. If your life is predictable, then where would the excitement and fun be? Whether you believe in predestination or free will, you can't predict the future either way
But I guess I should really think about the future. If I don't prepare myself for whatever is ahead of me, then I'll be so confused and lost when the time comes. How am I suppose to prepare for the future though? I don't really feel like learning a bunch of things that may not help me in the future. It would seem like a waste of time. But I don't really know which things will be helpful or not. Argh! Why must it be so hard? Oh well, I can't do anything about it but let God deal with this. These things are out of my range so whatever I am lead to do, I will do.
Oh, if anyone knows a good job in the field of science, please help me get a job! Hahaha, I really want a job! Thanks!