Holidays = Gnirob??

During the exam period, everyone is frantically trying to finish their exams as soon as possible so they can go home and relax. It is true that once you arrive home, everything seems so much better. After a few days of this relaxation though, it starts to get...gnirob. That is the reason why I'm not that big of a fan of holidays. It's good for catching up on rest, taking a break from school, seeing some friends and family and getting together. But once it passes a certain number of days, it just becomes really gnirob.

Holidays for me so far has been both eventful and uneventful. Eventful meaning I've done some cool stuff and of course uneventful means I've done nothing special. The eventful things I've done include: watching movie with sisters and dinner with my family. Yeah, that so far is all I can really thing of. Uneventful things include: watching tv for most of my time here, reading ahead for Physio, napping the other times of the day if I'm not watching tv.

The following days should be more eventful. Parents are holding a dinner with friends from work and other friends. Going to game all night at my friends house until the sun shines again. Hang out with friends at dessert places and wherever we end up going after. Some stuff to look forward to at least! But I'm guessing this will last about a week. That means I still have another week to kill before heading back into London.

Maybe because I've been in London for too long and grown to like it more than Toronto. Yes, Toronto has so much more appealing things, but London has it's good side. Oh well, that or I just miss going to school which keeps killing me in every subject I take.

Anyways, I hope all your Christmas shopping goes well and no one gets trampled by the angry mob trying to get the last pair of that special shoes everyone wants. I know I'll be dodging everyone but if you happened to see a tall boy disappear, look on the ground.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

In Christ,
Jeff

PS: Gnirob...read it backwards. Thanks Ernie, hahaha!

ROCK LEE!!!!!
(Note: This is a long post, and might not make sense near the end because it is late)

Today (meaning yesterday) I was at Einsteins studying with Simon, Hiram and Shelby. Simon had his laptop and started to watch old episodes of Naruto during his break. He was watching the Chuunin Exam where Rock Lee and Gaara were fighting. The episode where Rock Lee just so happens to open 5 gates was the one which I missed. So I decided to watch it when I got home starting from the first fight leading up to that episode. It was so awesome and so touching too!!! *cry-worthy!!!*

The touching moments started with Hinata vs. Neji fight. It was obvious that Hinata was no match for Neji but she still fought with everything she had. Even though she was looked down on, she fought because she wanted to change. She didn't want to be the carefree and shy girl that always wanted to avoid violence. So she fought, she fought all out. Even after being insulted not by Neji and having flashbacks of her father not caring, she pushed on. She ended up losing the fight, but she proved her point. She changed.

Next was the one I've been waiting for, Rock Lee vs. Gaara. I only wanted to see the amazing moves Rock Lee could do, but I totally forgot about the story behind it all. While being super amazed by Rock Lee's gate opening and super duper butt-kicking, there were flashbacks of his childhood as well where he would train so hard. He set goals after goals after goals for himself if he couldn't achieve the first one. His heart and spirit were one.

Rock Lee isn't one of those ninjas who could use ninja and illusionary techniques, but only hand-to-hand combat. Because of this, he trains day and night trying to perfect it. He was always called a drop out but he didn't let that get to him. He continued to train hard and never gave up.

After the match where he lost and was beat up pretty badly, the medic pulls his sensei away and told him that Rock Lee cannot live as a ninja anymore. THAT'S SO HEART BREAKING!!! All his training and mastering of all those moves and his sweat and blood gone to waste!!!

But if you keep watching to later episodes, someone comes in and heals Rock Lee back to health and he's okay again! Yahoo!!

So, there must be some sort of reason why I am posting this other than because I loved this episode. Yes, there is another reason. This episode reminded me of a verse I read.

And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
- Romans 4: 2-5

During exam periods, we all tend to be stressed, depressed and angry. We also feel like giving up. We feel like we are suffering and don't understand why we put ourselves through this torture of studying. It's like Rock Lee opening all those gates even though he knows it will pretty much kill his body. He did it to stick to his words and his goals/beliefs. We do it to glorify God's name. In the end, we both end up on the ground. But all this does not kill us. What does not kill us, makes us stronger. Rock Lee gets healed, so do we. By the love of God, we are healed, we have hope, we become stronger. We get back up and get back into the fight because we know that God is behind us.

It is easy to forget this because all we think about is studying studying studying. We worry about our marks (at least I am) and our future when we don't need to. If we are to pass, we will. If we are to fail and become drop outs, then we will (hopefully not). Whatever happens, God has plans for us that are waiting to be unwrapped like Christmas presents.

So....STOP BEING SO STRESSED AND SMILE EVERYONE!!! EVERYTHING WILL TURN OUT FOR THE BETTER!! YOU JUST NEED TO WAIT AND HAVE FAITH!!!! TRUST IN THE LORD!!!! WAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In Christ,
Jeff

Scary

11"There is no one righteous, not even one;
there is no one who understands,
no on who seeks God.
12All have turned away,
they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
not even one."
13"Their throats are open graves;
their tongues practice deceit."
The poison of vipers is on their lips."
14"Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness."
15"Their feet are swift to shed blood;
16ruin and mistery mark their ways,
17and the way of peace they do not know."
18"There is no fear of God before their eyes."

- Romans 3: 11-18

SCARY!!!!!! While reading this, I thought that to myself. And also sadness.

On a funnier note, I have become very cautious of the time I wake up now. Since I have 4 9:00am exams this semester, I have to get up early to prepare for the exam. But looking back at the last few days and possibly last week, I haven't been able to get up early and missed my last two morning classes. So to make sure I got up early, I set up 3 alarm clocks. First one was my gigantic korean clock, second was my cell phone and lastly my computer which was set to blast Linkin Park's Faint which would have probably woken everyone up. But thank God, I woke up to the first alarm clock and didn't result in using the last one. Geo exam went alright, didn't write much for one or two questions because we never discussed about it in class. So all the things that my hand was writing were pretty much God at work. The only one I would take credit for was the last question which I was perfectly prepared for (because the prof told us the question in class).

Next exam is Biostats, which so happens to be tomorrow morning at 9:00am again. I guess I will do the same thing with the clocks again just in case. This exam hopefully will go smoothly because it feels like it might. PTL that there is a formula sheet given or else I'd cry.

Crabby's for food tonight! DOTA breaks are awesome!

In Christ,
Jeff

Crazy Beautiful

Haha, stole "Crazy Beautiful" from Ernie who stole it from the actual movie to describe outside. I woke up yesterday to find outside to be filled with the white pure snow. Some areas still untouched by our dirty shoes and hands, but for those that have been are already being covered. Reminds me of how Jesus "covered" for our sins [ie. our dirty shoes and hands (sins) have been covered (taken away) by the white pure snow (Jesus)]. Even though I'm not that big of a fan of snow, the beauty of it makes me want to jump in the snow and forget about all my troubles. But I didn't do that, instead I tried to work. Somehow that didn't work out as planned.

I started off the day at around 10:00am and ate + watched anime until 12:30pm. After that, I tried to buckle down and get some serious work done. But instead of doing that, I popped in a dvd full of anime and started to watch it. In between I got some work done, some naps in and some food down as well. I would say: 55% anime, 30% sleep, 5% eat, 10% work. I felt kind of bad for doing so little work. But around 10:00pm, J.Liu adds me to a large conversation and we all decide to go tobagganing down UC Hill. This was the chance for me to jump in that wonderful snow, and so I did. J.Liu was right, I would have regretted it if I didn't go. IT WAS AWESOME!!! One of the most fun I've had in years. It was cold but it was worth it.

So Ernie comes around to Summit to pick people up for the fun. He shows up at my house with his new rain pants which he just ripped when putting them on. He parks his car and I helped him clear the snow off his car while he gathered people. I went around the car at least 5 times and it was still covered by snow! We had some trouble with vision but we still arrived safely on campus. We had to use the trays Ken had to dig a parking spot for Ernie, that was a new experience. After that, off we went to the Hill. Met up with J.Liu where he tackled everyone almost to the ground except Tiff and me. Started to make our own slide down the hill and it was hilarious. All the different things we did was so funny and fun. Backwards, Superman and Torpedo. We even got a race going since we had two slides. By the end of the night, we were all cold, freezing and happy. Ernie's rain pants turned into a skirt, Mike was frozen stiff, and the rest of us were just cold and tired. It was all worth it though.

It really was crazy beautiful. How amazing that something this beautiful and crazy was created by Him. Ah, just thought of something. The falling snow = Jesus coming down! Awh, so many representations snow can make, hahaha.

Stay healthy and have fun in the snow! But also do your studies as well! Good luck everyone and +oil!

Bump Bump

*Running*...ouch cramps...*continues to run*. Cramps are like the bumps in our lives that make us miserable. But after we get through it, it becomes all better because we can continue our run. We just need to never forget and never give up.

It may seem sometimes that God is not there but actually, He is always there. He is with you when you are happy, sad, angry, worried, depressed, excited, crying, etc. He was there when you got your first A, He was there when you were learning to ride your bike. He was there when you cried, He was there when you lost someone close to you. He was there and He still is there.

So why do we sometimes think that He isn't there? Is it because things do not go the way we want it to be and see it as that He has left you there to suffer? But in truth, God allowed this to happen so our trust in Him is built to an even greater height because if we trust in Him, then we would know that everything will turn out for the good. We also learn from these ups and downs in our lives. If we never fail then we would never learn.

"Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I need You most You would leave me."
The Lord replied, "My son, My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trail and suffering, when you see only one set of footprings, it was then that I carried you."
- Footprints by Unknown Author

Thank You Father for Your love, Your blessings and thank You for carrying me during the times when I needed You the most. Even though I am a sinner, Your son Jesus Christ died on the cross for me to take them all away. What more can I ask for already but yet You continue to bless my life with friends and family. You truely are great and awesome.

Hang on to God and never let go because He will never let you go. The only things that pull you away are Satan and yourself.

Psalm 86 + He Answers

1Hear, O Lord, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.
2Guard my life, for I am devoted to you.
You are my God; save your servant
who trusts in you.
3Have mercy on me, O Lord,
for I call to you all day long.
4Bring joy to your servant,
for to you, O Lord,
I lift up my soul.

5Your are forgiving and good, O Lord,
abounding in love to all who call to you.
6Hear my prayer, O Lord;
listen to my cry for mercy.
7In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.

8Among the gods there is none like you,
O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.
9All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you,
O Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.
10For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
you alone are God.

Don't you just love it when you open your bible at a random spot and something just jumps out to you? Well if you don't, that's too bad. I find it quite fantastic because it seems like the Lord is trying to say something to you. Trying to grab your attention.

I was in Organic Chemistry class one day and Shirley Y. was sitting beside me with her bible on the table. I wanted to take a look at her bible because she had this metal bible holder when most people had a fabric holder. It so cool, the case is kept closed by a magnet, SICK! Anyways, I took a look at the bible and started to flip through pages and randomly stumbled upon Psalms 86.

Let me back-track for a second and tell you how my week was so it makes more sense as to why these verses jumped out to me. So basically last Saturday I did my Biochemistry exam and felt really bad about it because I can feel that I didn't do that well. I felt quite confident at some point before writing the exam that I might just be able to do well on this exam. But during and after the exam, that feeling pretty much wasn't there at all. But couldn't do anything about that anymore since I'm not writing the exam anymore. So the next thing I had to study was for my Geography "quiz" (50min with 39 questions does not constitute as a quiz in my vocabulary). I thought to myself, "Oh good, I have a few days to do some studying for this test." Sunday came by, Monday came by, Tuesday came by. It's not like I didn't do any work through those few days but it felt like I did minimal work. On top of that, I remembered I still had to do my Biostats lab assignment which was due on Friday with a lab to do as well for Organic Chemistry Friday morning. So basically, I was pressed on time to get stuff done.

So I decided to try to pull another all-nighter so I could finish the lab assignment for Biostats and get some more notes done for Geography. I did a bit of the lab but didn't understand at all how to do it so I just left that. By that time, it was already 4am and I had no energy left to stay up. Wednesday rolled by and I was feeling quite crappy and stupid. The fact that I couldn't get everything organized and manage my time better made me feel crappy. The fact that I couldn't understand how to do the lab and study properly for the quiz made me feel stupid. After I got home from classes, I started to study like mad for the quiz. Rachel messages me and asks me about the lab assignment. So I just sent her my unfinished copy while I continued to study. A few minutes later she messages me and said I sent the wrong lab assignment. Then I realized that I sent the wrong lab because I did the wrong lab. After finding that out, I felt even more crappy and stupid. I was bascially thinking again, "KILL ME NOW!"

I've never felt this bad in university before I think. But at time moment, the Lord sent his sons and daughters to my side to comfort me. People just started to message me and asking how I was feeling and why the crappiness and stupidness. Upon that, they also prayed for me and stuff :).

6Hear my prayer, O Lord;
listen to my cry for mercy.
7In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.

So basically story cut short at this point. The Lord does answer your prayers. He was just so awesome after that point on. The quiz ended up being extremely easy, my lab assignment was completed due to the help of Rach and Steph, and the chem lab was pretty easy as well. It just felt like all my stress and anxiety was replaced by happiness and freedom. God had answered my brother and sister's prayers and mine as well! He heard my cry for mercy and help and He came. Ah, the feeling that I got when everything was done was unexplainable.

One thing that I really wanted to do after all my work was done was to be able to just sing praises all night long in ACF. And He answered that too! It was Praise and Prayer night at ACF yesterday. WOOT! How great is our God!!

In Christ,
Jeff

Rushing...

The title means that I've got to rush this post because it's almost time for me to leave for class. Nothing much has happened since the last time I posted. Other than the horrible Biochemistry exam that happened last Saturday, sigh. On a better note, Automobile Collision Force is off to the second round of playoffs! And we'll be playing agains Amazing Catch! Fielder (note: both are ACF teams). It was a default win but a win is a win. It was a really nice day as well so we just played a friendly game since we were all there. As well, Shelby, Justin L. and Glendon came along to watch us play and got a piece of the action.

Been so tired lately and as well being rushed to finish my work + study for my Geography "quiz" (how can it be a quiz when it's over 40 questions and worth 15%?). I tried to pull another all nighter last night but practically died around 4am. Am I starting to feel the effects of age 20? No more all nighters??!! So behind with work. Got to finish my Biostats lab by Friday but got the "quiz" on Thursday evening and I'm already behind in studying for that due to absense of all-nighter which was suppose to allow me to finish the lab AND study. I only got through half of the lab because the rest made no sense that my state of mind at 4am. Ugh, I feel so stupid and crappy and weak and dirty and...and...errr...cold-ish now. Sigh, pray that I'll be able to get all this done and be free from testings and examinations. But even if I get through all that, I still have the "catching up" phase which I have to catch up to as well. Feel like I'm going to explode/break. Hopefully it won't happen.

Note: I think it's been now...6 or 7th week of me being sick. Not that good. I still consider cough a bit to be sick. If you don't, the I was all better a few weeks back, haha.

In Christ,
Jeff

Birthdays!

"Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to Jeffrey. Happy birthday to you!" That was sung by my Biochem class + our professor. This was all thanks to Simon and Rachel. It felt embarrassing yet joyful at the same time, lol. Having over at least 700 people singing happy birthday to you is a birthday gift I'll never forget.

So yes, I did study on my birthday. Didn't get much done though. Only had maybe...3-4hrs to study that day. Anyways, so the day started off by going to Biostats class. Nothing special happened there except I saw Rachel telling something about me to Karen L. Afterwards, we studied a bit but not much at the library. Off we went to eat lunch and then to Chemistry. Was "fishing" a few times during that class. Then came BIOCHEM! Always loved that class. Our prof for these few sections is great. So funny and enthusiastic (can't believe he can use Calvin and Hobbes comics to relate them to biochem). As everyone was starting to leave at the end of the lecture, the prof announces: "Jeffrey Cheung. Where are you?...It's his 20th birthday today. Lets all sing happy birthday to him." All I could do was to turn to Rachel. How did I know it was from her. I guess it was from experience and just knowing she would pull something like this. And she got herself a helper too. But thanks Rachel and Simon! for that..umm...gift. After that, I stayed behind for the tutorial with Karen L and Charis. Karen and I were hungry/thirsty, so we walked up to where else but Tim Hortons. When Karen was purchasing, I heard her say boston cream. I was like "WHOA! Karen's going to eat a boston cream!!!" But after she got it, she just gave it to me and said happy birthday, lol (darn, thought she was finally going to eat it). It would have been a better gift if Karen at it for me, hahaha, but it was still very nice. Thanks Karen! After tutorial, we went to the library to study. Only got an hour done there since I went to prayer meeting. And all the time I was at prayer meeting I was worrying about my stuff being taken away at the library because I left it there. This was all thanks to you Karen as well for making me think it's going to be taken. Prayer meeting ran a bit longer than usual but it was fine. Got back and started to study again. Got text messages from my sister and her boyfriend saying happy birthday as well. Thanks Karrie and Kevin! I then got a call from Simon to come home earlier because people are coming over. So I left at 10pm with Shirley (birthday girl), Enoch and Vivian for my house. When we got there, there was pretty much only a few people at our house. It seems like no one arrived earlier than us to give Shirley and me the "surprise!". Slowly but surely, everyone started to arrive. Tracy brought a mango cake from TO for Shirley and me. Thanks Tracy! After failure attempts of me trying to slice the cake and loitering at our house. I opened the presents people gave to me. Thanks Rachel and Victoria for the 15 pairs of black socks! Thanks Stephanie and Hiram for the dress shirt! Thanks Abraham and Karen C. for the dress pants and tie! Now I have another full suit I can wear. It will make its first appearance either at Unity Formal or LCAC dinner. Afterwards, Justin L decide we should all go to A&P, so we did. Bought a few groceries at that time too so we won't starve during our studying week.

Overall, this was a great birthday. Highlight was definitely the prof + biochem class singing happy birthday. Got a hand shake from the prof too! Thanks everyone for a great day!

So now I'm 20 and 30 is starting to crawl nearer. Why am I already thinking about 30s? I've got other things to worry about than turning 30, lol.

Thank God for providing me with such great brothers and sisters in Christ and family. Been a wonderful birthday and hopefully the last birthday gift would be a very well done biochem exam (too greedy??)!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY!!!!

In Christ,
Jeff

Believe

"Believe, our blades will not break. Believe, our souls will not break."

Bleach has such great phrases from time to time. I "borrowed" this from the latest manga because I thought it sounded cool. Then Enoch asked me if I was going to blog about it. I told him that I didn't really know what to blog about. But as you've already guessed, I have figured out what to blog about, lol.

So what did the first part mean to me? "Believe, our blades will not break." I interpret this as to our bodies will not break. As long as we believe in God, the body of Christ will not break. As long as we stand together, we will not break. Not even Satan can break through us. We just need to remember to believe and trust in our Lord. The Lord will give us the strength to push the enemy back and resist temptations. We prevail!

Second part: "Believe, our souls will not break." Basically the same thing I guess. Believe in the Lord and our souls will not be broken. Nothing will shatter our soul. No attack can penetrate us, no abuse will break us.

This will go off topic for just a few seconds. So I just did my Organic Chemistry midterm exam. I felt like I aced that exam. I knew what to do, I knew how to reason my answers. I just felt like nothing could ruin my perfect exam. Then I got home and the answers were up for the exam. Feeling all happy about how well I believed to have done, I hurried to check the answers. After checking, my smile turned upside down. I could not believe how badly I did. I checked my answers over and over again. It was the same mark over and over again. It was quite depressing and sad to have found this out. I was just like, "HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE!!!" After a few minutes of sadness, I felt no pain anymore. It felt like, the sadness couldn't get to me anymore and all I can feel is okay-ness (not really happiness but felt alright). Then I read my MSN name.

"Believe, our blades will not break. Believe, our soul will not break."

It just popped into my mind that God has come and blocked everything. He has given me the strength to overcome this sadness.

Everything that we do, everything that we say will have their consequences. Either it is good or bad, we will get through the tough times as long as we believe in our Lord. Believing that he will grant us the strength to overcome the hardships. He will walk with us and guide us, protecting us from our enemies. There will always be tests in our life. Whether it is in our workplace, at school or in life, we just need to believe. Believe not only in our own strength, but in God's strength as well.

Hope this made some sense because I just read over a bit and confused myself, hahaha.

In Christ,
Jeff

Hearing

Did you know that hearing starts off as sound waves, then vibration waves and lastly fluid waves? In case you didn't know, now you do! Yeah, that was kind of random because I didn't know how to start off the blog. And since I learned about hearing in Physiology, I decided to enlighten those people that didn't know about it.

Anyways, so you must be guessing why this blog is titled "Hearing". Well, I was at pray meeting and was talking to Yun Ping about being able to hear God talking to you. From what I learned, everyone has a different way of communicating to God. Some people are able to actually talk to God and hear His voice. But how do they actually know it's God's voice and not just their own brain telling them what they want/need to hear? Personally, I don't really know when God is speaking to me. I haven't actually experienced this talk with God yet. Maybe God has been talking to me and I'm just too dumb to realize that. I don't know, can you really distinguish between your own thoughts to God talking to you? I'm pretty sure a lot of people have and still talk to God. I just want to know how they know it's Him. Maybe time is what is needed for a person to realize it.

Yun Ping gave a good way of explaining. Say you like a girl/guy and you know a lot about her. You know what he/she likes to eat, watch, hear, smell, feel, etc. By that time, you'd probably know the sound of her voice without seeing her. That's probably the way it is with God as well. It takes time to get to know someone and then find out that you like that person and then you get all these weird sense. It will take time to get to know God, love God and eventually able to hear him. So I guess I don't have to stress about being able to hear Him or not yet. If I am to be able to hear God's voice, I will one day. And hopefully everyone will be able to do the same if they don't already!

In Christ,
Jeff

1,2,3...

It's been a long and not so tired day. So you may be guessing why my title is "1,2,3...". Well it all started at the Taylor library. Karen, Charis and I went there after Biostat class to do some studying before Orgo. We went from the very top floor to the second last floor to find a seat. So we all settled in our own little cubicles with graffiti all over them. I looked up at the table number and it said "G123". The 123 reminded me of where Rachel, Vic, Tracy and Aiv lived in Elgin. Anyways, I took out my Orgo texts to study and turned to the index to find the page. And again, the page number was, you guessed it, 123. I was like "Whoa, what's going on here.". Yeah, it was kind of freaky but I just shrugged it off. So while I was studying, I came upon mechanisms for reactions of alkenes and other stuff. And those had 3 steps to them (step 1...step 2...step 3..., get the connection?). So this got me thinking about why I kept seeing all these 123's.

I pretty much came up with nothing, hahaha. Fooled ya! Yeah, it was kind of meaningless. The only thing I could think of was that there were steps we had to follow in life. Step 1, step 2 and then step 3. Not in any other order. But that seemed kind of stupid.

*Pause to think about it some more now*

I guess this can connect back to yesterday's blog. Step 1: God loved. Step 2: Then we loved. Step 3: err..can't think of anything for here. I don't really know what this really means. It just seemed like God was trying to say something to me but I don't understand it at all. I feels like I should know what it's about and it's right at the tip of my tongue but just can't seem to spit it out. Maybe it will come to me later or maybe not.

If you think you have an answer to this "123", please leave a comment or message me online after you finish reading this. Thank you, bye bye!

In Christ,
Jeff

Man of God

I really should go to P&R's more often. I learn so much more than from most things. Before I start off with my learnings, I just have to say this. My nose is half-bleeding. This means that it's bleeding, but it's not dripping out. I think it's because the blood is mixed in with the snot and caused the blood to be more viscous. So when I blow my nose, I get this diluted ketchup coloured snot. Pretty graphic isn't it? Alright, onto the rest of my blog.

So P&R's was awesome. I don't understand why I've been there twice only. So Roger talked about manhood. I'm really poor at listening and learning without something in front of me to follow with. But good thing I caught most of the main ideas Roger was pointing out to us. I'm pretty sure most people already know that God loved, and that's why we love. Well, I sort of knew that. It made a lot of sense to me though when I heard it. Where would love come from if not from God? There wouldn't be love if God hadn't loved first. It's because of God's love that we all feel love. Okay, now I feel like I'm repeating the same things over and over again. Moving on, Roger also mentioned being a man of God. Do you want to be a man/woman of God? I sure do! Why wouldn't you want to be a man/woman of God? It's a blessing to be given something to do by Him. But, it's true that it's hard to understand for the people around you that you must do this. It won't be easy to just drop everything and go do God's bidding and have everyone understand it. That's why you must feed them bit by bit of the "mini jobs" you are getting from God. So then when the "big job" comes, they would understand. Would you be able to drop everything and go do your job? I sincerely hope I can do that. Even though I have never done it before, I know that God will provide me with the "things" I'll need for the journey.

I'm kind of lazy to re-read what I just wrote to see if any of that made sense. I'm pretty sure there will be a part that you'd be like "huh?". I have no confidence in my blogging skills what so ever. I just spew out what are in my thoughts in random order hoping they make sense together.

In Christ
Jeff

PS: "If life was a game, then God would be our walkthrough." - Jeffrey Cheung...hahahhaha

Tired And Learning

Going to start putting titles on my blogs. Why? Because it just seems a tad more professional and just because I want to.

It was quite tiring today, but let me take you back to last night after ACF. After ACF, we had our usual loitering in the classroom for 'x' mins (was thinking hrs but might be going too far). It moved to outside when the lights were being turned off, forcing a massive wave of Asians to walk out the building doors. A group went to Crabby Joes, as usual, and the rest went over to my house to chat around and play games. Waited for the bus for over 30 minutes I assume but probably took longer than that. Anyways, we got home and somehow everyone just followed me into my room and decided to stay there to talk. This meant I couldn't dodge everyone and go to sleep, even though it was still kind of early (if you consider 11pm to be early). So the conversation marathon began and I doze off time after time, catching Shirley planning to do something to me on the corner of my eye. Oh right, I forgot to tell you that I was still sick. And for some reason, when I laugh, it would make me cough even more. So we talked about a lot of things and most of them made me laugh. So yes, that meant I coughed a lot as well. Strangely, coughing works your abs if you didn't know that already. It's like doing crunches but you don't have to lie down on the floor. After a few hours (1pm-ish now), everyone begins to leave my room due to hunger. So that meant sleeping time for me. But while in bed I could hear the laughing from upstairs so that kept me awake a bit. As well, my coughing was pretty horrible that night for some odd reason. It just kept coming and coming, not allowing me to get some rest. But I eventually fall asleep and get some rest.

Next morning was SOFTBALL! First game back since our first game. I got ready, ate, dressed, took a quick nap on the couch. Ken rings the bell and off we went to the field. Got to the station and checked the schedule. Believe it or not, we just missed the bus by one minute. So we decided to just walk there and it wasn't that bad actually. Our team slowly gathered at the field and warmed up for the game. Game time arrived and our opponent was not to be found. Same goes for our umpire. Few minutes pass and they finally showed up, but we already got the win since they were late. It meant that I could have slept in and came late as well and I would have still won! Oh well, I got some exercise early in the windy, snowy Saturday morning. After playing a game, I went home and took a shower, packed up my books and fled to the library.

I walked into Einsteins and who do I see there bright and early? It was Hiram! Been so long since I've seen him in that place, and with his books open too! Double whammy!! Anyways, we went to go study and as we both knew, we started to drift off and fall asleep.

Geez, I'm going to cut this story short even though I have enough time to keep going. Long story short, I did a lot of stuff and made myself really tired. Should have just done this in the beginning. Save both you and my time, lol.

Anyways, was talking to Shelby and I said a few things that I didn't know I knew about. Some things you decide to do may not be what God wanted you to do. Here comes an analogy. Say your life is a story, there is a beginning and an end. These cannot be changed, they are written on paper with ink. But the things in between could be different. You've heard about alternate endings, but life is more like alternate paths that eventually end up at the same place. You have choices in your life that are provided by God. There may or may not be the "right" path but we're human. It's not like we'll choose the "right" path 100% of the time. We tend to slide off and take shortcuts, choose the "wrong" path, create our own paths, etc. But for every path that moves away from the ending, God shifts us back onto the right track (seems like I'm combining cars and books together...car story?). Anyways, God has plans for each and every one of us. If you disobey him and wander off, He'll yank you back onto the right path. He also fills the path that you supposedly were to take by placing someone else there. God just works that way with people. Isn't it so confusing yet so great the way He does this? Well, I think so anyways.

Hope this all made some sense and it wasn't just ideas flying in all directions. Till I blog again!

In Christ,
Jeffrey

Man, it has been a long time since I've written a blog. Well, lets start in the summer. In August, my family moved from Scarborough to Unionville. What this means is I moved from a townhouse to a realllllllly nice house, lol. I miss my old house since all my memories of my life come from that house. But I am sure that this new house will bring me as much joy and hopefully more than my old house. Packing was horrendous and I never want to move again, lol. It's great for Simba, our family dog, since he's always so hyper and active. The larger area to run around will help him get the exercise he needs.
So in the beginning of September, I moved back to London to start another school year at UWO. Guess what, there was more packing and unpacking. But at least this time around it was with a new bunch of people. Introducing the members of Summit 4: Hiram, Abe, Simon and Andrew. Oh yeah, me as well. Living with them has been pretty great. We all get along by gaming a lot, lol. No fights yet and hopefully there won't be any. School work has been piling up and keeps on piling up. So I really need to settle down and do more work in one day instead of slacking off so much.
This past weekend, ACF had their annual fall retreat. The first ACF retreat I went to was really great. I didn't think it could have been beaten. But this retreat proved me wrong. Thanks to Roger, everyone in that room was changed.

Jesus doesn't care if you do your devos, serve him on the worship team or any of that.

That was the wake-up point for everyone when Roger said that. The thing that he said next got to me. Roger said that Jesus had nothing. He had no money, job, family and even clothes. So the kicker here is that we are all trying to be like Christ, but just by looking at ourselves we are far from being like Him. Jesus had no clothes and look, we all are wearing Nike, Chanel, and a bunch of other famous brands of clothing. At that point, I just thought to myself: "Should I take off all my clothes then?" Obviously I wouldn't have done it or else everyone in that room would have poked their own eyes out, lol. But it did get me thinking that we are no where close to being Christ-like. As well, Roger said that most of the love we give to Jesus is not the same love that He wants from us. And that is true, for me anyways. All these things were like a kick to the crotch or a slap in the face. It was a wake-up call. And hopefully it didn't go off too late for me. I've wasted my time asleep and dreaming that I have been doing the right things, and loving for the right reasons. But now I am fully awake and loaded with a life supply of caffine in my system. So thank you ACF and God for this awakening.

So not much has happened really these past few days. Friday night my cousin called me up and took me to Jack Astors for a drink. He also gave me some protein shake powder so that I can game some weight and finally force me to workout. Thank Tony for the stuff, smells just like chocolate milk powder, yummy!

Today I walked the dog a total of 4 times before 2pm. The first was the routine morning walk so he can get rid of his waste. The next one was when he woke up from a nap and we were waiting for people to come look at the house. We waited for a while and it seemed like Simba couldn't hold in his pee any long so I took him out for a quick one. Came back and waited a bit more and finally they came to see the house. Afterwards when they left, the real estate office called and said there was going to be another group coming to see the house in a few minutes. So that meant I had to take Simba out to walk again. This time was a lot longer and Simba started to get irritated and I had to, in the end, carry him home.

Parents and sisters went out this morning to the real estate office to talk about an offer someone put for our house. They signed a conditional contract just in case someone else wants to buy the house. Meh, I don't really care anymore, but the price was kind of low that they offered.

Yeah, this is a short one because it's so early in the day. Oh yeah, going to get my G license on August 8th. Need to start driving some more now, sigh. Such a rush to get this done.

If you thought golf was a leisure sport, think again. I use to play golf a bit. Took some lessons during the summer and went to the driving range a few times. But that was a long time ago and I haven't touched my clubs for quite a while. On Sunday, my cousin called me up in the afternoon to go to the driving range. So he picked me up and off we went to hit some golf balls into a field with boards sticking out of the ground with numbers on them. I took out my driver and began to swing it at the balls. The driver wasn't that short I thought, even though the set I bought years ago was a junior golf set. I forgot a few things about positioning and stuff but my cousin reminded me about them and gave me a few pointers as well. After a while, I wanted to try my other clubs. So I reached into my bag and grabbed the 5 iron. Oh boy, I had forgotten how short I was back then. The club was pretty short for me, but I was still able to hit the balls, kind of anyways. I wasn't hitting the balls that well so my cousin told me to use the 9 iron since it will tell me what I am doing wrong. So I grabbed my 9 iron and got into position. I looked down and I saw how short the club was. It was realllllllllly short. I had to bend down so much, looked like I was a China man sitting on the street, according to my cousin. I took my first swing and it did not look good. I totally missed the ball and the swing felt like I was trying to hit a baseball instead. Now that was quite embarrasing, hahahaha. It was tough, but as well a fun time that I had with my cousin. The only problem left was the pain. I woke up the next morning struggling to get out of bed because my ribs were in pain. I felt the after-effects of golfing. Oh the pain, how I did not expect you to be so painful. If I laugh, cough or sneeze, my ribs would feel like someone punched it. This is the effects of not exercising at all, sigh.

Started to read my biology textbook again. It is so hard to concentrate without the pressures of school breathing over my shoulders. I need an exam to get me going. Even a simple quiz or a test will do probably. I did however come up with a question from reading the textbook.
Q: What happens to the non-kinetocore microtubules that are continuously elongating in mitosis?
If anyone can help me answer this question, then thank you, lol.

Trying to get my driving test appointment for G license done right now. The stupid site is soooooooooo slow and the times I want seem to make the site go bonkers. *waves fist at the site*

So many things happened in just one Friday. In the morning, my parents went out pretty early to meet up with the real estate agent to put an offer down for a home in Unionville. When they got home, we offically owned a new home on 16th Avenue and Woodbine Road. Right after that, we had to subway down to downtown for my sister's convocation. Arrived right on time to see her line-up to walk into the Convocation Hall at UofT St.George. The bad thing was that only my parents got to go in and see the ceremony. So that meant my other sister and I had to wait for them to come back out. So we went to Eaton Centre and ate at Subways for breakfast and went to Dominions to buy flowers for our sister. It wouldn't have been that bad if I was wearing normal clothes and shoes. But nope, I had to wear dress shoes which killed my heels since they were scrapping it every time I took a step. After the ceremony, there was of course pictures to be taken. Then we went home where I slept for a bit and then went out to Magic Wok for dinner. Afterwards, we went to Go For Tea for some bubble tea. Haven't had bubble tea in a while I think. But note to self, don't get taro next time. Too creamy for me :P.

The next day, people came to my house to look around again. Hopefully one of these groups will buy our house. At around 3ish, my cousin came over to pick me up to go to the driving range. It wasn't that bad. I forgot a few things but I could still hit the ball, sometimes. The one thing that I forgot about golf was the pain. Blisters on the hand, pain in the body the next day. Oh boy, I really need more exercise, hahaha.

Wow, it's Wednesday already. Thought it was only Tuesday. Time sure flies by quickly when there is nothing to do other than chores. Hope this doesn't turn into another "chores blog".

Recently downloads a new chinese series that is being shown in Hong Kong called Forensic Heroes. From the name, you can basically guess what it's about. Compared to CSI, this show is no match for it. I shouldn't jump to conclusions so quickly. I've only watched the first episodes so maybe I should give it some more time and another chance to impress me, lol. Since I'm on the topic of t.v. shows, might as well keep going with it. Bleach has been dragging on with filler episodes for way too long. There are fights during these filler episdoes but they aren't even intense enough for me to enjoy it. Naruto has also been using filler episodes for a while now. But at least the Naruto episodes are more interesting with different people showing up, more skills being shown and just more funny than Bleach. Another anime I've been watching is called Wolf's Rain. It's an old show, and not many people know about it, but it's pretty good. (Short summary about the show: Four wolves [which have a human form as well] are after this place called Paradise where wolves rule. They must find this person made from a flower [yeah, it sounds weird, I know] that will bring them to Paradise.)

Someone came to my house today to take a look at it. The real estate agent called at like 12:30pm when I just got back home from driving on the highway for an hour and fifteen minutes telling me that they will be bringing someone over to look at the house at 3 o'clock. So, I relaxed a bit and ate my lunch before starting to run around the house trying to make it cleaner and neater. I was stuffing clothes under things and hiding garbage wherever I can. Right at 3 o'clock, it started to rain and that meant I couldn't take the dog out to walk while the people were looking at the house. So it ended up with my dog and I sitting in the kitchen while the people looked around the house. At around 7:30pm, my mom, sisters and I went to a house in Markham to check it out and see if we would like it or not. After walking around the whole house, I can clearly say that Cindy will love this house. It is completely covered in pink! IF we do buy this house, the colour MUST be changed. The first thing I thought of was how the father could live with this, lol.

Cool, didn't turn this blog into a "chores blog". My mission is done here for now, until the next blog!

This is going to be a regular routine it seems, probably until I find a job that is (if that is going to happen). Anyways, Saturday was the early celebration of Cindy's birthday. A few people went with her to Centre Island for the day and met up with the rest of us at Joe Baboli's (i think that's how it's spelt) for some fine Italian cuisine. Everyone had fun either making funny conversation or watching the hockey game. Everyone was trying to sign Cindy's card but it was a bit too obvious, just a bit. I was struggling to write the card since she was sitting right in front of me and Brian just didn't care and wrote it on the table. After dinner, we all stood outside in the windy streets of downtown Toronto thinking of what to do next. Spent 30min deciding on what to do since we kept trailing off to something else or pushing around who's house to go to. Also, a homeless lady came to our group and asked from a donation to pay for the down payment of her lamborgini (sp.?). After the discussion, a few of the people went to Old Finch I think to check out the spookiness that goes around there. The others, including me, went home to sleep, lol. Your present from me will come soon Cindy. I just need to go to the mall to do that, which may take awhile.

Finally got up to go to church today. Been missing church for the past 2 weeks I think because I woke up late and missed it. But this time, I remembered to set the alarm clock to wake myself up. Should really get more rest though if I'm going to wake up that early. I was fishing near the end of the sermon, so bad.

Going to get my driving instructor to teach me how to drive on highway tomorrow. Need to learn how to merge properly and not scare my dad. Got to remember to go running with Hiram as well. Anyways, I end here.

Well, I finished my schedule for next year. All I have to say is, I like it! I end almost all days by 3:30pm except for a night lab on Monday for first semester and evening lab on Wednesday for second semester. Fridays are the best though. Two hours of class in first semester and only one hour of class in second semester. If I can get this timetable, I think I'll be jumping for joy!

Anyways, the real estate agent came today to do a "tour" of our house (ie. taking pictures of our place to put on sale). Simba (my mom's dog) was whining the whole time because he couldn't see what was going on. Since I'm on the top of Simba, I wake up every morning now and automatically change and go downstairs and walk him in the morning now. Without giving a thought to anything else. It has become a routine for my dad and I to do that, so sad.

So Fifa has started and everyone is getting all excited about it. I'm not that big of a fan of soccer but I watched the match between Poland and Ecuador and it wasn't that bad. I got excited at a few points during the match-up. So I guess I can see why people get all excited when watching soccer on t.v.

Well, that was my day. Still haven't completed my to do list for the remainder of the summer. Hopefully I'll get to that soon.

Well, since everyone is using blogspot nowadays, I thought of trying it out myself. Time to start talking about my boring life. Summer has been nice this year, not too hot and not too cold, in my point of view. I'm mostly doing chores, wait, let me rephrase that. I am always doing chores since I am a failure at finding a job. So all day I wash clothes (which is just did), iron clothes, wash the washroom, walk the dog, mop the floor, vacuum the house, clean the blind (haven't done that yet but I'm sure to be told to do it soon), cook lunch and prep dinner (but I volunteered to do this since I need to learn how to cook) and other stuff that I don't remember at the moment. Sigh, I desperately need a life, hahahha. Probably should have taken summer school either at Western or at least at another school here in Toronto. I'm just withering away at home infront of the computer/t.v. Hopefully I will find a job soon and get some income for the summer. Or else I would have really wasted another summer and I don't want that to happen again.

Don't really have any other news at the moment. Oh, I just saw my dog rub his bum on the bottom of the sofa. Disgusting but hilarious at the same time. I can't stop laughing at him for that. I'd go into more detail about it but don't think you'd want to read about the motion and the sound he was making, lol.

So what do I do with my spare time (which is a lot) at home? I play games (Thief 2/CS:S), watch tv, download episodes of random anime to watch, create a new blog to waste time, chat on msn with people that either have a job and are using msn web or to people that are just like be but better and wander around the house. I really need to do some exercise and find a job.

List of things I need to do for the rest of the summer:
- get some exercise (i need some more fat, i'm just skin and bones)
- get a job (ie. get some $$)
- get a life (very important)
- learn to cook (so I won't starve during the school year)

This is the end of my first blog on blogspot. Hope my next one won't be as boring. I can't promise anything but I will try to have some fun.